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define: naturally = super-abnormality   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope November 7 0518 ©
 

a cold cut silence creeps against the western dark
a myriad ... a montage, cartilage holds its mark
     drained upon defeat /it is/ just a passing phrase
     
    mementos combed so stark they have created their own grave

                                                                              but what's in a letter
                                                                                roots constant in it
                                                                   i'll run but while you're writing
                                                                             maybe we can dodge this       hit


we wormed to the top shelf
heights and trees be damned
a single star skid the sky line
to remind of what was had

 a  million times a memory
 a  thousand halves displayed
 a  hundred paths for every longing
 a  dozen still left saved

if a
blank space pul-sates
skips a step or a strikes a stone
does incanation beckon - \ley lines reattune\
rendered in gears
                              in pines
                                              inside                    (the mentored and the blind)


                              if yo u cu t it in to pi ec es
                           does it dream of being whole
                              if you saturate in darkness
                           do you think with empty h les


                               

skin said the static ʿ had fell out ˒ of the ̜ reflection                         ̜                     ˒           ʿ
                                                       in your eye
it's hot (too much) and cold to touch
                                         don't ask but why
it smells, but not as such
                           it's skipping out of time
it sounds, on and off of rust
                     feigning blood and grime
erroding what must turn to dust
                 the tendons still adjust

 
     

(suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
deepbreathshtaerbpeedeepbreathshtaerbpeedeepbreathshtaerbpeedeepbreathshatterme   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope October 28 2056 ©
 
Well i was sitting on the pavement
flirting with the passing cars
I never knew then what a wave meant
where i was or who you are

But when i struck there was a shockwave
and it tangled in the stars
hit my head forcing the lights out
till i woke up in a jar

Certain tests to keep my fitness
others still were just for par
I felt this final of solutions
was to cru mble in to sh ard s



Homunculus and Isis shattered
this jaded prison pattern
whether void or just a prism
Attachment renders schism
Ͼ

You helped me spawn a demon
its name I know so well
the work of dissonation
you helped me cast a spell


ʘ
This world and all it's longings
don't cut the crime of day
indefinitely broken
subconsciously the way
of doors and flights of ladders
peaks of hardened onyx dust
cinnamon and feathers
   broken heạrts and lust

Ͻ
 
     

(suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
there    
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope April 18 0129 ©
 
there is something about this place
and i'm running so far in it
trace all my footprints and put them in crime labs
my sneakers are drawn out
tied on too tightly
harvest their heartbeat
till nothing is fleeting
lockets in lockets
and pictures in perfect
break upon a virtual shore
data impending a final release
version debating this one harm abating
a closed yet impersonal store
unconscious connections
rekindled belated collided elated
 
     

(suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
rusty pathos   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope April 15 0325 ©
  infallible crystalline webs vibrate in a perfect C
minor variations in the way we sync
dawn is coming, no matter what it brings
semblance dis as sem bled along the tracks
aves laid out now useless flack
a sacrafice could not be made
it starts to taste like hand grenades
at first there was a pact to raze
a dancing burn made ash in waves
a hungry shark with foreign hats
aristrocrats with brand new tats
their game a grasp of ladder rungs
make shift ploughs and shiny bugs
time: an essence in my drink
slowing sips scraped space to think
below out and shout within
my danse is loud and without sin
 
     

(suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope June 30 1231 ©
 
Keep them wandering wander in
break¦ the tenslessness in tedium 
rising tides via hemispheres glowing with radiance
r      e  stl  e ss legs when it's going "all right"
made a pact with a ghost who was helping me find anyway
out this room and it's (s)tar stained wall wrecking balls
knew my name -                               - strayed far from home
                            since it's changed

                                                                                                   not finding footprints out this far

     (so( I( (circle) )i)n)
mirages seem to be hoovering
                                                promises out of reach
in time we'll see,
                            the naked,
                                              the reasoning
but here we are /trapped/ mid step on the \cracking ice//
               with the time snap
---------------------------whiplash
---------------------------
taste of blood in my mouth shaped fountain
confusions set on dissolving </me> 
        lungful of cold.still.breath
 sink till I swim
skidmarks from a wasted rhyme
in your head out of breathe recalling things
                                        I ought to know
remembered words but not their flow
 haunt me well
  taunting crow
 
     

(1 breathe short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
ignore me now to hide yourself   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope November 29 0533 ©
 
  




                    Breaking out the O  C   D
                  Make more of whats left of me
                    take the time to trim my thoughts
                stretching things to make you grin
                     accepting fates more than a whim
                            resonate what quartz creates
                         precipitate like a bargain rate
                   when all my water has escaped free
        I'll make my words seem dead than hate me     


easier to run down so it's easy still to disappear till your finding empty answers while your lies appear revealing regrettably that starting clean with nightmares only creates more time for them to multiply once your out of space but in your head stretched so thin until your dripping red mistaken yet spacewalking why's it all circles at the stalk enchanting as you sit and stare and sum on words that seem more useful as excuses formed to get thoughts out while you accost your doubt for things that are more real than the things you've seen creates a mirror for the world to dance between and pinpoint spots to help your past self not be circled silent sleepening
 
     

(2 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope July 14 0523 ©
  we faltered in June
and then blossomed on Jupiter
felt all the pressure come from down and around us
but still we bob in the mercury clouds
filled with wingless bats
clammed up like morning dew

every sun is red here
the postman never comes
I can't tune you in on the radio
or tell them where I'm from

a million dreams are packaged and shelved
only half as many left living
can't ship myself to Bangladesh
or wake myself last morning

you may not recognize my ghost
haunting the other sides of town
yet
the windmill still spins and
Greyhounds
still
descend
 
     

(6 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope June 6 1144 ©
 

sound siphons beating heart
five vibrant crystals
tracing outlines in the dark
hide and seek with demons
nothing breaks apart
        colors in refraction
                 faces like a spark

the channels in your story
still more than alegory

descriptions in your tune
preaching pitches opportune

soldiered on despite the claims
so resolute ... when none's to blame
dropped above but fell below
a pocket watch in blinding snow

 
     

(2 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
freality   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope December 25 1509 ©
  There a world out there ---->
that;s fill fa filled with fear
they try and say its fine
if you don't go too near


are you still trying to adhere
it can all be replaced
with a simple substituted space
clearly it's not falling into place
your eyes still linger
drawing energy
what a waste of time
to sit on the finish line

here the cards fall, snow flaked offers
into our space, ingredients for taste
here we see the feeders keeping pace
a metronome of grace
beating hearts practice a race


blow past words and opposititions
strangely stitched to dampen whispers
hard to take yet not to listen
can ya can ya see
intertwined candescently
 
     

(3 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
Hey   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope November 5 1733 ©
  Hey, it's a work in progress, don't tell me that it's digressed
while my hearts still beating i'm able
to crush and enable

Hey do you hear that sound, it's coming from the grave mound
just when your less loss then found
you move on - to the next round

Hey let me tell you why, I don't care ... about the reply
all the small things seem amiss
who really wants to just exist

 
     

(suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
the color was?   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope August 31 1923 ©
  Grey was the color on the walls
and everything faded away

with no walls left in array
the color doesn't matter anyway

if alice was afloat in outer space
a pill's a pill is a pill

but my feet feel dirt
my
hair feels air
my
mouth feels water
and
my heart feels fire

each and every soul
          a crossroads
overgrown or overused
it's a matter of choice
   what you lose.
 
     

(4 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
will-o'-whisk   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope April 12 0714 ©
 
I ran into, the lady of the woods
her stare was not friendly, or pensive
so i tiptoed through the grove
to give her a wreath made of lillies
and while her breath was chilling
she left me unchanged
and still breathing


I fell in love, with the lady of the woods
but i would not see her for ages
I'd wander around, listening for her sound
but mistake it for birds
and leaves on the ground
till my thoughts had almost forgotten they'd found her

I spotted her though
, near the edge of no road
where the water m
eandered to greet us
she didn't mind all the barbs, stuck to my dress
when i snuck up behind her,
and stole a kiss, i confess

From indifferent to freightened
she knew she'd been smi
tten
and almost fled out of shock all the same

but the wind it did change
from a perilous page
wh
en her eyes turned from dark to inviting


I've wandered
about
with the lady of the woods
till my boots were more
holes than useful
I'd told her my soul
was of the wind long ago
and that her touch alone made me youthful


 
     

(2 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
cotton candy cat   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope March 31 0256 ©
  fast forward through the sand art
lisa frank has a mortage on my soul   (plasticine depections of rock and roll)
and if I ever get outta here, i'm gonna pay ya back
yeah, where the corner stores stock up on lick in the dark mood rings
strobe light troll dolls and candy cigarettes ... the kind with the cancerous sugar

i was stocking up on bait for Gone Fishing
drank a liter of drain-o and puked out a rainbow
got a date with a sailor in a barge on a trailer
         half the movies sex and violence;  
    forgot the rest in its silence
 
     

(2 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
e=Mv^2   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope March 15 0001 ©
 

             they pick; their battle grounds

"I hope they don't pick mine"

                                   the monotone cried

                     for who can be woke from the grave?




                                              the ghosts of those yet to be saved
 
     

(1 breathe short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
trap in station   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope February 23 0458 ©
  a rampant stab at the dark
where the faithless seem to play
where will the cards fall today
where will they lead a stray

every breathe a stamp and a card
where the trials tend to break and start
everywhere is coming apart
from every other way

where the pauses were meant to decide
the distance before a sigh
breaking through the edge of the day
just to invent a new way, to fade away

dawns more a cry then a plea
not an ear left to hear it flee
taking all the time in the world
to waste away today
 
     

(suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope February 6 1753 ©
  concubines eleven
trainwrecks in kiddie pools
breathing way harder then I need to
only to be left gasping for silence
the second I realized I was at the center of things
I was past them
not getting any easier to not be there
and I don't think it's cause i enjoy crawling
maybe i'm painting with my knees
and 6 million years from now it'll look back on itself
and find some sort of beautiful snail trail
if i'm lucky

if we don't get erased in place of some higher form of grace

if the grit in our space isn't worth the time to elate


it's such a sad state as of late, sucking on smoke rings



through the subliminal substrate, aint it great?
 
     

(4 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
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3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope December 7 0206 ©
                      a reaper merely harvests his crops;

           spf to ohm my chi off along the equator

         tight lipped and thin veined

    mumblin mandatory mémoires

        any more frag ile a tapestry

                   is dust on a weather vane

                    a reaper must harvest his crops;

           spf to ohm my chi off along the equator

         tight lipped and thin veined

    mumblin mandatory mémoires

        any more frag ile a tapestry

                   is dust on a weather vane

                    a reaper to harvest the crops;

           spf to ohm my chi off along the equator

         tight lipped and thin veined

    mumblin mandatory mémoires

        any more frag ile a tapestry

                   is dust on a weather vane
 
     

(1 breathe short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
skating along my Schwarzschild   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope November 28 1600 ©
  but if i shown bright in the past then any altar would betray me
for time has beat any past grace to punching me in the face

i forgot how good my blood tastes
and it's not even hunger

being human is more satisfying
then flying
or being a quasar
or turning people into jello
 
     

(1 breathe short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
than that was then   
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For the dead pigeons
strung up to the sky
a latticework of pendulums
reverse engineering black holes
in time, she said, in time
                          
I had to think for a second
a point so dense that speed alone can't scrape it
but time leaves just fine
so time must be faster than light


 
     

(1 breathe short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)

 
coma striken   
3.1415 9265 3589 7932 3846 2643 3832 7950 2884 love 1971 6939 9375 fate 1058 2097 hate 4944 5923 0781 lust 6406 2862 0899 8628 lost 0348 2534 2117 swim 0679 8214 tear 8086 5132 8230 stay 6647 0938 4460 away 9550 5822 3172 5359 rain 4081 2848 1117 4502 fail 8410 2701 9385 find 2110 5559 6446 trip 2294 8954 open 9303 8196 mind 4428 8109 7566 5933 hope August 28 0008 ©
 

i had carved a hole in my stomach so i could climb out
and shook off the spare nerves that restrained me
but i'm afraid i'm trying to escape again
so i bound myself
in padlocks and promis
es
i can feel my scratching once in a
while
but the warm summer airs
sting me to sleep like a lullaby




 
     

(6 breathes short of | suf·fo·cat·ing)